I mentioned that many strong drugs can be purchased here in Panama without a prescription, and that I had bought some Tramadol (a mild opiate) for my back pain.
I took the Tramadol for three days. I noticed during that time that not only did I have no physical pain, I also had no anxiety. I was very affectionate with Laura and Salma, and generally easygoing.
This morning I mentioned to Laura that I had stopped taking the Tramadol because my back is feeling better.
"Yeah, I figured as much," she said.
"Oh yeah, why?"
"You're back to your edgy self. When you were on Tramadol you were totally relaxed and friendly. I didn't like it. Not normal."
Apparently my Tramadol alter-ego is too warm and loving. It's good that I am loved just the way I am.